Fall - I took the season very literal this year, stumbling over myself in more than just one way. On top of the world one day, down in the dumps the next.
Nobody is to blame really, however tempting it may be to accuse others. Truth is, I have a tendency to bite off more than I can chew, workwise. I overestimate my strength, both physically and mentally, my ability to cope with pressure and stress has never been the same after I suffered severe burn-out-syndrome several years ago. I have a tendency to forget - and I have a hard time saying "no", both to official job-offers and to friends asking me for help, no matter how much I have on my platter already.
So, stumble and fall I did. I picked myself up, pulled myself together and tried to move on... on all fours maybe, rough-and-ready... but I move. Fake it till you make it, right?
Anyhow. Fall is coming to an end, and so am I. Running on empty. I'm so very tired, it's hard to make it through the days sometimes. But I do... I do.
Three more days and I can finally "let go"... sleep, relax, ease into and - hopefully out of - the tiredness and physical exhaustion. I can take a deep breath and detach myself from all the work and worries, regaining strength and energy, balance and inner peace. Pretty much looking forward to that... sigh!
